This morning my biggest fear was that I would have nothing valuable to say to my organ blogging students. No unique ideas or insights. It was a scary feeling.
They might not like the way I talk or presented my thoughts which could damage my credibility and the level of trust they have in me.
And as you know, we only do business with people whom we know, like and trust so this meant a potential risk of destroying my future career.
You might have a similar fear like I do. That you're not original and not unique, that you only copy what somebody else is doing.
Let me tell you something which will put it in another perspective:
Whenever you hear these voices in your head that you should stop doing something, that you will get in trouble for this, it means your Amygdala portion of the brain is scared.
It doesn't mean you should give in to this voice. It only shows you the right direction of where you should go.
Use this voice as a compass. The more it screams, the more you can be sure you are doing something important and valuable.
And the opposite is true: if you feel safe and secure, it means you're not taking big enough risks and that you have some deep soul-searching to do about your purpose.
So as I'm writing these words, my lizard brain is telling me it's a stupid idea but deep down I know I have to show up no matter what, regardless of what people think of me.
Because as Mahatma Gandhi said, first, they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.
I hope you'll show up to inspire, entertain or help someone today. Your organist career depends on it.
Don't worry about what you'll have to say.
Be yourself. The rest will follow.