Do you ever feel like your time is limited on earth?
I always knew that I won’t live forever but this idea wasn’t part of my reality. I knew that other people will die but I would probably live indefinitely. Funny, isn’t it?
I first started to realize that I too am going to die only a few years ago. I didn’t even internalize it when my dad died back in 2012.
So now I feel the passing of time much more closely than before. And I’m scared of one thing.
That when the time comes for me to go, I won’t have created everything I wanted to create. As Todd Henry says in his book, I want to die empty.
Not to leave any songs inside me. Instead, I want to let them out into the world. It doesn’t matter if they are good, it doesn’t matter if people resonate with them, but I have to let them out before it’s too late.
A lot of people live their lives without this idea. A lot of people carry a painting, a novel, a musical composition, a business idea inside them without even realizing this. And when they finally lie on their deathbed, they have this regret.
I wish I didn’t keep my songs inside me.
I hope you’re not one of them.